Each Person to Their Ability

I know that the urge and need to help may exceed your ability to help right now, and you may see some ablest comments that make you feel like you are not enough. Help to your ability. There are plenty of folks who can and will physically protest, and really, many do understand that there are folks who probably shouldn’t do that. It can be dangerous, you may need to move quickly, the noises are loud, and there are lots of people on the front lines. Covid 19 is still here, and immune suppressed people definitely shouldn’t be out in groups. I see you and I get that.

Many people will be able to help by donating money. If you can, that is awesome! We also know that a lot of people don’t have jobs right now. I personally do not have a job right now or any source of income. When I did have income, I gave it away. I have also given away all of my savings. In money, I simply have none left to give. I understand if you don’t either. You and I both know that if we had it, we would give it, so we can find other ways to help.

If you have access to some free downloads, there are lots of lists of books that you can read, if reading is your jam. This is a very personal, less visible way to help, but probably the most helpful overall because it changes and educates you as a person. Never underestimate that. It is important. Sharing things that are helpful on social media is also a great way to help, some folks call some of that “armchair activism”, but I know that can be frustrating for people who can’t physically do things. The fact that you are researching, thinking about, and critically assessing things yourself is also helpful.

Sometimes we have disabilities and illnesses that are invisible. I have clinical depression, and for me that means that if I am going through a depressive time, I have both good and bad days. There are many invisible illnesses and disabilities that also make it so that people have “good and bad days”. If you have never heard of “Spoon Theory”, google that. It is a very helpful. I understand not having enough spoons. In order for me to have nearly endless spoons, I have to be not depressed for a long period of time. I have been in a deep depression for over 2 years, and my spoons are very limited. Today I slept til 5 pm and cried multiple times. Today I didn’t have enough spoons for much of anything. I felt guilty about that. I can’t tell you not to feel guilty about that, because I don’t know how to tell myself not to feel guilty. I’ll just say “I understand you, and I empathize with you.”

Do what you can. I’m doing what I can. None of us will ever feel like “enough”. I don’t know that it’s humanly possible, but we can all contribute something.

March Reading List

The March Reading list is my last reading list for a while.  After we became quarantined, I simply stopped being able to read.  I have not a single book for April, and a pile of books that I intended to read, but I’m not there yet.  Hopefully, I did enough reading for the first 3 months of 2020 to hold me for a couple of months until I can get my head back into the reading game.  Right now I’m looking up tons of recipes and other useful ways to keep my hands busy.

1.) The Gathering Storm- Robert Jordan

2.) Towers of Midnight- Robert Jordan and Brandon Sanderson

3.) A Memory of Light- Robert Jordan and Brandon Sanderson

4.) New Spring- Robert Jordan

5.) Warrior of the Altaii- Robert Jordan

6.) When Katie Met Cassidy- Camille Perri

7.) Every Wild Heart- Meg Donohue

8.) Second Sister- Chan Ho-Kei

9.) The Boatman’s Daughter

10.) Bluebird Bluebird- Attica Locke

11.) The Supremes Sing the Happy Heartache Blues- Edward Kelsey Moore

February Reading List

In an attempt to catch up my reading lists, here we are, publishing my Feb. list in May.

1.) When you are Engulfed in Flames- David Sedaris

2.) The Talented Ribbons- Ladee Hubbard

3.) Today Will Be Different- Maria Semple

4.) Where the Line Bleeds- Jesmyn Ward

5.) What it is: Race, Family and One Thinking Black Man’s Blues- Clifford Thompson

6.) How to Party with an Infant- Kaui Hart Hemmings

7.) The Black Cathedral- Marcial Gala

8.) Disgruntled- Asali Solomon

9.) Heaven, My Home- Attica Locke

10.) Heads of the Colored People- Nafissa Thompson-Spires

11.) Secondhand Souls- Christopher Moore

12.) The Hike- Drew Magary

13.) Heart of Junk- Luke Geddes

14.) Copycat- Kimberla Lawsome-R0by

15.) Hiding in Plain Sight- Nuruddin Farah

16.) Unsheltered- Barbara Kingsolver

17.) Crossroads of Twilight- Robert Jordan

18.) Knife of Dreams- Robert Jordan

Reading List: January 2020

My New Years Resolution (one of them), was to read more books.  Every month I’ll be posting books I’ve read, most of which, can be found at Cameron Village Library.  Some of these books were recommendations, others I simply found browsing the stacks.

January 2020 Reading List

  1. “Everyone in Silco” – Jim Monroe
  2. “The Age of Anxiety” – Pete Townsend
  3. “Mrs. Everything”- Jennifer Wiener
  4. “Small Great Things”- Jodi Picoult
  5. “Wildlife” – Richard Ford
  6. “The Vain Conversation” – Anthony Grooms
  7. “Delicious Foods” – James Hannah
  8. “Welcome to Braggville” – T. Geranimo Johnson
  9. “A Spark of Light” – Jodi Picoult”
  10. “Where the Crawdads Sing” – Delia Owens
  11. “The Night Circus” – Erin Morgenstern
  12. “So Much Blue” – Percival Everett
  13. “Anyone” – Charles Soule
  14. “Ruby” – Cynthia Bond
  15. “The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society”- Mary Ann Shaffer and Annie Barrows
  16. “How To be an Antiracist” – Ibram X. Kendi
  17. “The Purple Swamp Hen” – Penelope Lively
  18. “Calypso” – David Sedaris”
  19. “Let’s Explore Diabetes with Owls” – David Sedaris